Monday, May 02, 2011

Hitting the Fill Line

Life's been a bit "interesting" of late, in the "May you live in interesting times" way. For the past half year I've put my emotions on hold while I dealt with what was in front of me. This spring as things settled down I was finally starting to unpack them and allow myself to feel vulnerable.

Then the tornadoes came, and feeling vulnerable didn't seem like a good idea anymore.

Now Bin Laden's dead. To be honest, Bin Laden's never really pushed my buttons like he did for a lot of people. I live too far off the beaten track for any foreign terrorist to target anything near me (Homegrown terrorists are another story.) and I refused to run around like a chicken with my head cut off on his account. So I know the tears I cried at his death had nothing to do with him and everything to do with reaching the fill line on my reined-in emotions.

I'm so tired. I want to sleep for about three straight weeks. I know it's just a stress reaction, and I'm glad I crave sleep instead of alcohol or temper tantrums, but on a practical level it's like asking for the moon.


FlybabyInMaine said...

I understand that! I hit my Fill line every so often, and burst into tears and rage over something stupid (AKA where are my tan pants....WAHHHHHHH) At that point DH just lets me rage a bit till I calm down and than offers to do something that I want to do (like make the 400mile round trip to visit a friend)

Lioness said...

It helps to have an understanding DH. :)